I used to do all that myself – bought the house, or bought the ashram, anything, in my name because I thought, “Oh, I can do it.” I didn’t think of bothering other people. But in my will, all of this will belong to the Association – already written. As soon as I get it, it becomes the Association’s property – not for my private use, not my family, not my sister, not my brother, not my niece, my whomever use. So anyway, it’s all yours.
Hallo, everyone. OK, OK. Thank you. Let me catch my breath before I talk. A few more breaths. (Hallo, Master.) I’m too tired to talk. OK. You’re all good? I’m sure. You’ve been sitting, eating, drinking, nothing else while I’m working like... I don’t want to mention that word.
You guys good? (Yes.) (Yes.) Hallo, everyone. (Hallo.) (Hallo, Master.) How are you? Hi. How are you? How are you? (Fine.) Fine? (Yes.) Good, good, good. That’s all I know. Indian, sorry. Sri Lankan, no. Ewe (language), no. What else do we have on (Supreme Master) TV? Russian, no. (Polish.) Polish, no. We also have some African languages on (Supreme Master) TV sometimes. What was that, something Tululu? (Telugu.) Telugu, yes. And Tagalog, no. That’s Philippine, I think, if I remember well; forgive me if I don’t.
I’m here, alive. I may breathe a little bit first. I really need it. Oh! If I knew being a monk was so busy like this, even having to put on makeup, I would have stayed home – be a lay person, cook breakfast for my ex-husband, go to movies, go to restaurants, go to the beach. Yeah, yeah, that kind of life; exchange for this anytime. This morning was very busy because I had to take care of some of these mundane affairs, all morning. If you see my office, you will see papers everywhere. I couldn’t let my dog-people come up because they would eat them. Last time, they ate some of your documents; they ate them halfway. The small ones, the little ones, puppies, they eat anything they can see. My shoes they love. My slippers, your documents – oh, yum, yum. You know, the documents for Supreme Master TV, applications, whatever – oh, yum, yum, yum – they take them out and eat, eat, eat.
Luckily, Good Love he’s a very smart boy. I don’t know how he does it, but he lay on top of the rest. He lay on them. He won’t move until I come back, and then he moves so that I can see the state of affairs of my precious paperwork. If they eat it all, it means we would have to print them all out together again – if I’m near the team. I don’t know how to print these things. I don’t know anything about the internet, except the USB and to push a couple of buttons. Luckily, they eat the unimportant parts. The names, the dates, the titles, are still there, but it looks a mess. It looks a mess. Anyway, this is my life. I didn’t think I would be this busy. Without dog-people, it would be less busy somehow because they take a lot of attention. They love to play with me and go and sissy sassy. One eats a lot of (vegan) snacks – never enough (vegan) snacks. Even if they are full already from their kitchen and come up, they still want to eat a lot, and they don’t ever have enough (vegan) snacks. Snacks are their life.
And on top of that, today the locks didn’t work: the gate lock, the electric lock. It’s very convenient nowadays; you can use electricity to open the gate automatically. It didn’t work. I was stuck inside the gate. Nobody was inside, because, at that moment, nobody was there. And only the women, only the nuns have keys for my gate; the males don’t have. If they want to come in for any repairing or something, then a female has to come and open the gate for them, or I open it. That is the problem. The females they live far, far away from me. Normally, they don’t have to come at that time with the keys. And I was stuck there waiting, calling. They didn’t answer the phone even. “This telephone (number) is not available at the moment; try again please.” And then they speak in Chinese, and then in English. OK, fine. I tried again. No, didn’t work. I tried again, didn’t work. Only when you need it, it doesn’t work. That’s like that. That’s why I’m so late. I wanted to come at 12 already.
Thanks to you, now I have a gate and fence. Before, we didn’t have a gate. We didn’t even have land. And now we have land, but some people like to introduce themselves into my place when I don’t want it. You people, you disciples, so-called disciples, not outside people. Outside people they don’t come here to make trouble. You guys, people. Because before, they occupied my place up there, right in front of my cave, just some 10 plus square meters, and put a big tent there. So they knew every nook and niche of my place, from when I wasn’t there. And now because of that, sometimes I have visitors – unwanted visitors come at some hour that is not really the time for a human to wake up, trying to open the door even. So now I even have a door in my cave.
Before, we didn’t have doors in the caves. We had only a piece of cloth hanging down for the mosquitoes. Like a mosquito net kind of cloth, we hung it there. That’s it. And in winter, we put a piece of clear plastic sheet hanging there so that we could see outside, some light, but not cold. That’s all we had. And now, we even have gates and have doors, double lock doors, double lock gate. The gate is automatic and has a lock as well. Imagine that? And if one of them doesn’t work, you won’t see your Master. That is the problem, and today it happened. Today it happened, because my remote had no battery, that’s what they call it. Battery – just a little thing like this, two of them or one of them. If one of them doesn’t like to work, time’s up, or whatever – time to reincarnate – then it doesn’t work. So, I had to wait there a long, long time, and call people to come and open the gate for me. Because these nuns, two of them, are the only ones that have extra keys. Because they have to come in and out, take care of the dog-people. Something like that. Or take care of the environment for me – only once in a while. We can’t afford a lot of time nowadays anymore.
I don’t know why I’m telling you all this stuff. It’s just to let you have a glimpse of my private life. You love to know what I’m doing, right? How I live my life – if I have a life anymore. Even to take a shower nowadays is consuming precious time. Before many disciples came, I had other engagements, like I bought this ashram and that ashram. And now we don’t use them anymore because they’re too small. Like, sometimes you saw my private house, so-called private house... It’s a private house because it’s in my name, not because it’s private. Nothing is private anymore, not even my life. It’s all yours.
My money is for you to buy ashrams, to repair ashrams; just like a manager of a hotel here, or anywhere. So these ashrams from before, some of them are too small, became too small, useless. And now I have to think of a way to sell them and where to put the money. I have to go and make a bank (account), etc. And I don’t know how to manage all of this. Many other things I cannot tell you; forget that. It’s a secret of the spy, Heavenly spy. You know spies, they have many passports, many names, many identities, many tools, many instruments, so that they can escape, they can do their job without being detected.
Imagine your Master doing a worse job than that, worse job. Because I’m not trained to be a spy, number one. Number two, I don’t have that many instruments. Number three, I don’t have many passports – the spies they can make anything. They can have many cars ready for them anywhere. They can have helicopters for them or airplanes waiting for them anywhere, any time if they need to escape or go and do some other job. I don’t have any of those. But I do have some IQ to make use of whatever I have, and take care of myself, protect myself in whatever situation that I’m in, and luckily, it works up to now. It works. So I’m still here, looking at you – beautiful karma, handsome karma. So this morning, I had to take care of all this private stuff because of time. People have to come at certain times, so I cannot wait until next year, or next day, or next month. You know, in the world, things change quickly; you have to do it fast. Luckily, I also have some help, one or two… My eye hurts… One or two that can help a little bit. I mean for running. Running for me instead of having to run personally anymore.
I used to do all that myself – bought the house, or bought the ashram, anything, in my name because I thought, “Oh, I can do it.” I didn’t think of bothering other people. But in my will, all of this will belong to the Association – already written. As soon as I get it, it becomes the Association’s property – not for my private use, not my family, not my sister, not my brother, not my niece, my whomever use. So anyway, it’s all yours. It’s just that I had to do it myself because sometimes I had to go abroad and I bought it there. Like in Europe, over there, I don’t have anyone that I can rely on or contact. They’re not nearby and they have families, jobs. And not everybody can just come and go, signing contracts, signing papers for me. So I had to do all that myself. And now I have to undo all this myself. You see? Many things like that – apart from business – I also have to take care.
