Even the lights are sleeping. Only the aircon is awake. This should keep me awake here. Do you have aircon everywhere or just here? (Everywhere.) Behind you and… (Yes.) Because I only hear this side. Look at that. They discriminate. Over there, there’s no aircon. See that? I’m going to sit there. Oh my God, look at the lights, they’re sleeping, sleeping. How are you? (Alright.) Good? (Yes.) Sleep well? I love you when you sleep. You make no trouble, just being quiet and (snore) occasionally. Occasionally, a note or two, you know… That’s it. I love you when you sleep. No questions, no trouble, no blessed food. Did you have good dreams just now? (Yes.) No? Yes? (Yes.) Who had good dreams? Who had good dreams, raise your hand. Nobody. I did. I had a dream that this is not true, all this is just an illusion, and I’m just on the beach sunbathing or talking to my dogs(-people) or something else.
So, what’s new? Since we don’t have too much time, if any of you have any urgent questions, you may come here right now, this minute. I’ll count to three. And if nobody comes up, that means that from now to the end of the retreat, no questions. One. Did you hear what I said? (Yes.) You understood? (Yes.) One and a half. Two. No questions? (No.) No pregunta? Two and a half. Two and three quarters. Then you come up here! I said whoever has a question, come up here. There’s only one quarter left. And you are the only one. Oh, come here. Where are you from? (I’ve missed You..., London.) I miss you too. (I love You so much.) I love you too. (I’m honored to be here.) Wonderful. (Thank You so much.) You’re welcome.
What is your question? (So much to say.) So much to say? Say everything, say everything. Since you are the only one here, you have the whole planet. (I’m so shy.) So shy. Then come here, then you won’t be shy anymore. Come sit here. Do you want to sit here? (I’m shaking.) You’re shaking. Oh, my goodness. What to do? Here, here, here, have some water. This will calm you down. (Thanks.) It’s only me; they are just illusion. Nobody here except me and you. No need to be shy. See, you’re so brave. Look, a thousand people and you’re the only one. (You don’t know how much I’ve wanted this, that’s why.) “How much you wanted it?” I know, I know. Nobody else wanted it. Only you, so it’s OK. Forget them. (You’re inspirational, it’s for me.) What is that? (I don’t know what I’m saying.) You don’t want to hear? (…this is not working.) Just sit down. Just sit down, meditate. You have nothing to do. Do you want a cushion behind there, for your butt?
(You were saying how You’re sitting there and You thought that everything was an illusion, and I’ve been feeling as though…) No, I didn’t think that everything is an illusion. I, hoped, I dreamed that it was an illusion. (I’ve come here, but I feel as if it’s all an illusion. I don’t feel real.) It’s not real. (I don’t feel real.) Me too, I don’t feel real either. Never mind. It’s all not real, actually. But it is real. We make it real, so it’s fun. Here, apple juice, will keep you calm, my God. I join you. Cheers. Mother’s Day. What? (Master all my feelings, all my… everything I want, You answer everything.) Oh, really? I haven’t even spoken anything. (I don’t know, but You know it all. You Know it.) She says I answered everything. Have I said anything? I just count to three and I answer all her questions. My God! And people think I don’t have magical power. Cheers! Hey. (Happy Birthday, Mother’s Day.) Not yet. Tomorrow, no? (More or less.) What day is today, the 11th? (Yes.) Not yet, tomorrow. Cheers. Illusion! Illusionary apple juice. You know, it’s true. Even when I’m saying to you that this is an illusionary apple juice, it is like that. My God, it’s so real, the illusion.
Well, since we don’t have so much time; today’s already the 2nd, and tomorrow we’re gone, so I let you wake up and have a look at me. Because you’re sleeping anyway, and there’s no use. There is no use sitting there and sleeping, and then go home and say, “My God; I should have kept awake. Master was there and I didn’t see Her at all.” All day, in the morning you sleep, at noon you have siesta, and in the evening, you go back to dreaming again. So, this retreat, we might not let you sleep a lot. Just keep the light on, and then I keep staring at you. So when you come home, you couldn’t say that, “I didn’t see You.” I make sure everybody sees me. (Yes.) Keep the light on.
Yeah. What happened? (I’ve gone through so much…) You’re still nervous? (Yes, a little bit.) Speak in there, everybody’s curious to see who’s the hero, what is she talking about? (It’s not working, is it?) It’s not working? (No, it’s not working.) Technician! There’s an angel coming. He’ll touch it and then everything will be working. See? (Oh, thank you.) And GOD says, there should be Light and there’s Light, (Light and then Sound.) there should be Sound and there’s Sound. Yeah, cool. Where are you from? Tell everybody. (I live in London, from the Surrey Center.) Can you hear? (No.) No. My God. (No, because it’s not…)
Loud, next to your mouth. You know how Michael Jackson does it? (Yes, but I....) You know? Almost eating the microphone. That’s how they do it. I don’t know, I never saw him singing actually. I just think that’s what they do. All the singers, they do it like that. They’re kissing the microphone. That’s how you can hear them. They talk like this, and the microphone’s almost half in their mouth. (Like this?) There, you should do that. Is it working now? (I don’t know. Yes, it is.) Now, you put it next to your mouth. I told you, half inside. (Well, I’m not used to it, so forgive me.) But you watch TV every day, you know how the singers do it. (Yes.) They never let the microphone away from their lips. Just like that. You see that? That’s how they do it. You try it. See? (Yes, it’s…) Even if you whisper, they can hear you. Can you hear me? Keep it next to your mouth. (OK.) OK, you know what? Cover it, in case. In case somebody leaves some souvenirs on it. (I hope not. I’ve had enough souvenirs.)
You’re calm now? You don’t have to talk if you don’t want to. (There’s so much I want to say, and I do want to talk.) OK. (But I can’t stop shaking.) Oh, my God. How old are you? (I’m getting better.) How old are you, (How old?) how old? (How old? I thought You said, “How are you?”) Of course, it’s a secret, but… (Yes. Do I have to tell?) You don’t, you don’t look like a kid, why are you so nervous? (OK. I’m not nervous.) What are you doing in London? (I teach. I started teaching this year.) What kind? (Art and design.) You teach designing? (Art and design.) Art and design. Wow. (Yes, but…) You’d take me? (It’s all Thank You to You. It’s all Your doing, the Universal Power’s doing.) No, don’t say that.
What kind of art do you teach? Design what? (General art and design.) That’s interesting. (As in digital imaging and photography, and...) Ah, yeah? (Yes.) That’s cool. You can do photography? (Yes, yes.) Wow. That is interesting. You are not married? (I am married, yes.) You stay in the Center, you said? (Sorry?) You said you stay in the Center, so? (No, no, I live near the Center) Near the Center, that’s what. (in Surrey. I live very near) OK. (the Center.) And your job’s OK? (It’s getting better. It’s my first year in teaching, so I’m a bit nervous, but it’s good. Yes I enjoy it. I meet lots of people.) Artistic people, they are not nervous. Very go-getting, no? (I can be, I can be.) Yeah? So why are you nervous now? (I’m OK now, Thank You. I’m OK, I’m better.) Yeah?
How long will you stay here? (I didn’t know I was coming here until yesterday morning, and I just came like that.) How did you get a ticket like that, like that? (Magic.) Just like that? (Yes, magic.) Wow, magic, really? (I think everything was arranged anyway, everything. I wanted this for so long, and…) You did? (Like what was in my heart, and my desires, they’re all answered.)
So, now what is your story? (I have a lot, a lot of experiences, Master. I had so much pain and suffering, but at the same time, so much has been revealed to me, Thank You to the LORD. I feel I’m not worthy sometimes.) So much blessing. (So much blessing.) Sometimes… (So much pain but yet there’s no pain.) Pain? Sometimes suffering is a blessing in disguise. (Yes.) It depends on how we look at it. (I’ve had an experience a little while back. I think I’ve died, and I’ve been brought back. I’ve had major operations in the last couple of years.) I know what it feels like. (I know You do. I know.) I know what it feels like.
I have just helped a person, actually. One of the persons I knew, he’s a doctor, he’s a vet actually, and… In the last week… he’s a vet and he has prostate cancer? This is nasty. They open all your pelvis, and it’s a bad arrangement from I don’t know Who, but that thing is very deep. They open your pelvis and then mess it all up. It’s terrible, and some people don’t come back. Is that right? (Yes.) Yeah. But this guy, he did come back, though, he did come back. He was so scared. It’s the first time he was under the knife. He was always on top of the knife before. He operates on the animal(-people) also, but he never has been operated on before, and he was very nervous. And actually, I… I don’t know how, I was kind of not very pleased with him before. He was one of my vets, but then something happened. I guess he thinks I’m one of the “girls,” so he can, you know what men like to do with women. And I was very displeased, so I didn’t want to see him anymore and went to another vet.
Photo Caption: “Adorning Just a Corner, but the Whole Yard Would Glow”
